Tim is always saying that we have plenty of time.  As in, “do the crap job now and work on the degree, because you have plenty of time to pursue that job you really want later.”  It’s a good philosophy, but I’ve been thinking about it lately.  What if we don’t have plenty of time?  Is this really how I want to be spending a year?  Two years?  Three?

Tonight was an answer.

There was an accident right outside my hotel at 2:30 this morning involving a drunk guy.  Police are still investigating, but what they told us was that he was traveling down Michigan Avenue at high speeds and hit a planter in the median.  The front end of the car was ripped off and the rest of the vehicle spun several times, skidding about fifty or so feet farther down the road.  The guy, dead by this point, was thrown from the car and lay in the middle of the intersection–thankfully covered by a sheet by the time I witnessed the scene.  The car was barely recognizable as such.

But it got me thinking–that guy, whoever he was, probably thought he had plenty of time.  Truth is, we don’t have lots of time.  I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I don’t want to look back and think, “What was I waiting around for?”

7 thoughts on “Time

  1. But at the same time, you can't live your life wondering "what if?". My aunt told me not to move to Chicago because what would I do when my grandparents died? I'd be so far away from home. I told her that I can't live my whole life waiting for them to die, because the fact is, they could be around for another fifteen years.
    The point: don't live your life by "what ifs". What if you die in a year and never got to be a published writer? But: What if we finish Orange Font and it gets published and you're wildly successful in a year?
    Do what you need to do for now. (And correct me if I'm wrong, but right now I think that's going to school for your Master's.)

    • But I'm not talking about what ifs. I'm just saying I need to make the most of my time now because it's the only time that is guaranteed to me.

      • I understand that. You don't think working hard at your writing and getting a master's degree is worth the time you've got?
        Not to mention — you're taking an INCREDIBLY pessimistic look on life, assuming you're not going to be around for very long. And even if you're not — whatever you don't accomplish in this life you won't even give a crap about when it comes to the afterlife you've got in store…

  2. I have to agree with Tim here that you shouldn't stress this stuff.. from your earlier posts you will soon be a published writer in Writer's Digest you also are working towards getting back in school all while working in Chicago :). I think you mainly just need some perspective that while your job may not be where you want to stay for the rest of your life. You are working on things in the background to change that and to grab the life you want. I am proud of my cousin and I think you just need to work on seeing that you are making strives. Anyway I hope you are getting better hours and such and I hope you know you will always have my support. *hugs*

  3. *waving* Hi Terry!! I added you to my friends list today. Come visit my LJ. *HUGS*
    Well, there's one part of me that says that there's really only here and now, and we have to just live it all one day at a time. But then my very wise 10 year old says something like this…"If we're supposed to live each day as if it's our last, then I certainly wouldn't spend my last day getting up early to go to school today!" LOL Too true, eh?
    So there's this dichotomy of living life to its fullest, each day counting for as much as we can make it count for, while also working and planning for tomorrow. Because tomorrow doesn't "just happen." We make it happen with what we do today, right? Doing the crap job and working on the degree provides for what we will experience in the tomorrows, it gets us to the next goal. Those big things don't just happen without the hard work and time attached to them, right? I wouldn't be permitted to teach if I hadn't paid my dues in the university, and continue to take classes and such, right?
    So, no, we *don't* have a guarantee of lots of time. We have to live our lives each day, appreciating where and who we are on THAT day. And if we are gifted with another day, then we again live that day as fully as we can, living today and planning for tomorrow.
    I think it's a balance…there's nothing wrong with waiting/working towards/planning for the "some day." The problem comes when we put off "some day" indefinitely, when we procrastinate and make excuses why we don't move forward/leave the crap job/take the risk/make the move/phone the friend, ad infinitum.
    My two cents on this bright winter day. I'm gonna go and look to see what other people wrote now!!

  4. Clearly, I'm not at the end of my life and so I lack the necessary perspective, but from looking back at my life so far I find that I think more about the people then the places or things. I don't think much will change at the end of my life.
    So I think it's more about who touched your life or who's life you touched. The happy memories you have with friends or family. Things like that.

What do you think?